Friday, September 30, 2022

The Audain Prize Luncheon of 2022


The Audain Prize luncheon was yesterday and I was invited. I don't normally go to awards ceremonies. Like Thomas Bernhard, I believe awards are designed to humiliate their recipients, and I am not a schadenfreuder. Of the few I go to, I go to the Audain Prize, if only to find out why I was invited. But this year I went with better intentions, excited because I didn't know who the winner was and because I worked hard to protect my ignorance, saying no to those who knew and who were trying to get me to ask them.

Because I am chronically early, I  stopped by the VAG to renew my membership and take a preliminary sprint through Sarah Milroy's Uninvited exhibition of neglected Canadian women artists of the '20s, '30s and '40s, an exhibition I enjoyed in part because it renewed my belief that Canadian women were just as derivative as Canadian men when it came to comping on European and Indigenous Art.

With fifteen minutes before the luncheon I bumped into a longtime VAG staffer I hadn't seen since the start of the pandemic and, through the course of our conversation, was told of a cancer diagnosis and the inevitable odyssey that all of us cancer survivors go through. A very meaningful visit for me, with a big hug at the end. As I made my way to the VAG's Hornby Street exit I saw artists Angela and Michelle gathering themselves, and of course I went to them because I knew we were headed in the same direction.

Angela was very present on the Vancouver art scene when I began to pay attention to it in the mid-1980s, a time when the public wanted some of that Neo-Expressionst painting that had travelled from Europe to New York in the very early 1980s. Angela was a variant of that, only her surfaces, which combine found photos and mystical applications of paint, tend to be smaller in scale. As usual we get right to it, and Angela says something about the work of another artist that will have me thinking about that work for days.

The Audain Prize luncheon was held this year at the Hotel Vancouver's Saturna Room, a much smaller and appropriately cosier room than last year's luncheon at that other Fairmont hotel in Coal Harbour. I felt proud to be walking through the lobby with Ange and Michelle, both of whom looked good and happy. We turned the corner and saw an open elevator with its "up" arrow glowing above, and like children we ran for it, joining Jane and Ross inside, who we were happy to see, and then a much larger crowd as the doors opened a few flights later.

The winner of this year's Audain Prize is another artist who combines painting and photographs, only in his case, the unifying structure is not expressive but minimal, his debt not to Die Brücke but De Stijl (he did his MA on Mondrian). That artist is Ian Wallace, an influential figure who, at 79, is deserving of an award that has grown to honour a lifetime of achievement, as opposed to that tired old saw known as What-Have-You-Done-For-Us-Lately.

Whatever energy I expelled over the course of this two hour luncheon (I insisted on piloting our table into sheer and selfish madness) was returned to me in the form of the three delicious glasses of Chablis I downed with my farmed steelhead and pound of sugar desert. Disgorged from pubic transit at the Commercial and Broadway Skytrain stop, I walked the nine blocks home in a holiday mood I hadn't known since my last (pre-pandemic) holiday. With two blocks remaining I saw a truck filled with rubble. What at first I thought was a mirror turned out to be a picture of me -- about to be taken to the dump!

Thursday, September 29, 2022

En pleine air


There are three dosa restaurants between the 1100 and 1300 blocks of Kingsway. House of Dosa (1391) was the first (late-1990s), followed by another (now defunct) run by the owner of the restaurant where the House of Dosa owners once worked. Following that, the Dosa Factory (1345), which many say has better food than House of Dosa, but a decor that feels slept in. And now Dosa World (1150), at a site that once housed Indian and Thai restaurants.

In an effort to attract business, Dosa World put out a flower box that might have come from the old Cedar Cottage Cafe site at the northeast corner of Kingsway & Clark, currently a hole almost as big as the one its co-owner, Francesco Aquilini, is alleged to have dug for himself as both a husband and a father. I watched as this box was planted this summer, and it saddened me to see that plants chosen for their bright colours were also those that require a fair degree of sunshine, something that is not possible outside a north-facing business.

And now this graffiti, which is clearly the work of four, each distinct from one another in colour, line and form. As you can see, the box was treated to a preliminary coat of white paint, allowing the black pen purists to stand out, be seen. We know now who "Drop Steady" and "below" are, though reading their names here, in my text, is only half of it, for these taggers are not here by design, only by that which is legible, as writing.

A violence of presence by those who have difficulty imagining a realty other than their own. I would say the same of the Vancouver Mural Festival. Yet another sign of the times.

Wednesday, September 28, 2022

Dreaming War: Blood for Oil and the Cheney-Bush Junta (2002)


At 9:30pm last night I went looking for Jupiter (above). A sudden impulse that came between watching a movie and flossing my teeth. Earlier in the day CBC Radio announced that Jupiter will never be closer to Earth in our lifetime than tonight, and it was the "our" part that caught my attention. "Our" as in all of us.

My bedtime ritual is now up to 45 minutes -- 90 minutes if you include reading. Until my early-fifties, going to bed was a matter of brushing my teeth, taking off my clothes and slipping between the covers. Six years ago, when I returned to school to do a Masters degree, I switched from showering the night off to showering the day off. That's when it started (and when I started remembering my dreams again).

I'm not sure what reminded me of Jupiter. But something I am sure of is that I want to know more about how we are reminded of things, for I am of the belief that this knowledge -- the how -- comes to us only at the time of our deaths. Knowing more about Death (in advance of it) will only add dimension to Life. Fair to say?

The book I am reading is Dreaming War: Blood for Oil and the Cheney-Bush Junta by Gore Vidal. I found it on a blanket with other books, CD and DVDs at a front yard sale near Commercial Drive a couple weeks ago. The person "manning" the blanket looked to be in their twenties and might have read the book, but it was hard to tell, despite our conversation about who the players were at the turn of the last century.

At one point they asked if 2000 Democratic presidential hopeful Al Gore was related to the book's author. I didn't know what to say. Being of high emotional intelligence, the vendor seemed to take my incredulity personally and shrugged without bringing down their shoulders, "Well, I wonder because in Scandinavian countries people take a parent's first name as their last name." To which the smart ass crouching next to me said, "If that's the case, wouldn't one of them be a Goreson?" and then leaving us with the open-mouthed duh face that ruins everything.

My introduction to Gore Vidal came in a People magazine article back in the mid-1970s. The article, which was full of dynamic black-and-white pictures of well-dressed socalities at an uptown Manhattan penthouse, focused on a feud between Vidal and Norman Mailer that likely had them invited to every party that was anything. Later I came to understand these two as representative of something we don't have anymore, and that's writers whose public intellectualism extends beyond their social media declarations to include not just essays and novels on contemporary life and its myriad contradictions and hypocrisies, but spontaneous debates where intellectuals hash it out, all the while protected under the once sacred covenant that it is okay to agree to disagree, and that we, the public, are the wiser for it.

Dreaming of War is made up of commissioned essays published both before and after 9/11. The one that most excites me is "Three Lies to Rule By" and was commissioned by the Times Literary Supplement, November 10, 2000. Though I find Vidal's asides annoying (sarcasm is a tendency common to those who are tired of knowing better than everyone else in the room), he has his insights, which I attribute to good research skills (he is an expert on the lifetimes of U.S. presidents), but also his access to Washington D.C's political elite.

This tweet-sized quote is attributed to the amazing Elaine May:

"I like a moral problem so much better than a real problem."

This one to Montaigne (1533-1592):

"Once let the tongue acquire the habit of lying and it is astonishing how impossible it is to make it give it up."

This one from former POTUS Herbert Hoover:

"What this country needs is a great poem."

(Interestingly, it was Hoover, Vidal notes [after his favourite historian Willam Appleton Williams], who saw his Democratic successor FDR as engaging in his own form of totalitarianism relative to contemporaries Hitler and Stalin.)

This from Vidal:

"... the relationship between [B]lack and white is still the most delicate of subjects for Americans ..."

And my favourite (my italics):

"But I am a fairly experienced narrator, and each character is, painlessly I hope, explained in context. Unfortunately, the new pop wisdom is that you must only write about what the readers already know about, which, in this case at least, would be an untrue story."

Tuesday, September 27, 2022

"To every thing there is a season"


We're well into September now, and many of us have attended events where we were asked about our summer. How was your summer? and I say various things, depending on my mood or the person I am talking to. Did you go anywhere? and my response to that is equally variable, wavering between My garden is where I go in the summer and How can I? I have a garden to tend.

I admit to being slow to the galleries this month. September was once a time when our state-sanctioned artist-run centres banded together to put on timed openings that would have us moving en masse throughout different parts of the city, reacquainting ourselves with each other, only now these centres are too burdened by their lack of funding or, in some cases, managing properties for other non-profits to encourage us.

I had a pleasant experience visiting Natalie Purshwitz's exhibition at Artspeak this summer, where the artist was there and gave me a piece of charcoal to draw with. Catriona Jeffries has some very old, never seen before work by Jerry Pethick which I think I mentioned in a past post. Amy Kazymerchyk's Pale Fire Projects opened with an exhibition that brings to mind Robert Morris's Box with the Sound of its Own Making (1961) and Allan Sekula's wall-work ethnographies insofar as shoreline artist Graham Landin's semi-minimal faux'k art sculptures are not unrelated to architect Scott Cohen's contribution to the design of the gallery's activity space.

Today is a good day to visit the galleries, but there's more to do in the garden. Not plantings or weedings, but pulling out dying stuff, trimming branches and vines. The honeysuckle, I discovered last week, is strangling the grape, which might account for why it produced only one bunch of grapes this year. Have to do something about that. One of them might have to go.

Monday, September 26, 2022

Odd Lots


I left the house at 10 a.m. yesterday on a frustration walk. Up to Kingsway, left to Nanaimo. But rather than cross Nanaimo and walk back on 31st, as I usually do, I turned left again, and another left three feet later and down the lane, trying to match the rear of its buildings with their storefronts.

The artist Gordon Matta-Clark drew our attention to the "gutterspaces" between buildings, and there were some along my walk that could only be seen from the alley. The one above interests me, "protected" as it is by a three foot fence.

Sunday, September 25, 2022

Divisadero (2007)


I loved his Billy the Kid, his Coming Through Slaughter, his Running in the Family, but then I started into his In the Skin of a Lion and got it all over my shirt. A mess that never came out. So sentimental. From there I stopped, though I continue to give his books as gifts. Books I've read, and those I haven't.

Yesterday I saw a good-condition copy of Divisadero at the SPCA Thrift Store and bought it for a toonie. The book is divided into three sections, and I know the precise spot in the first section ("Anna, Claire, and Coop") where the Story kicks down the door of the Writing. 

The passage in question:

"Anna went into Rex's Hardware in Petaluma and bought a can of blue paint, a specific blue to match the blue on one of the [Buddhist] flags, and lugged it uphill to the cabin. Coop brought his table out onto the deck. She eased the top off the can and stirred the paint. The weather was strange that day, the heat interrupted by gusts of wind, and they watched the flags bucking, almost breaking loose. Anna remembers every detail. She wound up the gramophone for music. They waited to make love. She sanded down the wood while conjugating French verbs out loud and then began painting the table. All that colourless wood in the cabin had driven her mad, and this blue was a gift for Coop. The wind died suddenly into silence and she looked up. The sky was a dark green, the clouds turbulent like oil." (p.30)

Anna, 16, is the farmer's daughter. Coop, who was brought home as a farmhand at the age of four, is four years older than Anna and the other baby her father brought back from the hospital, Claire, because her mom died in childbirth too. After the farmer/father catches Anna and Coop fucking, Coop leaves the homestead for the book's following section where, at 23, we find him running with a crowd of Nevada City gamblers. A fairly jarring gear shift, made more erratic for a section that so far is reading like the worst of Thomas McGuane and Cormack McCarthy. Two writers I admire very much -- for their writing.

How long will I last? How false will Coop's gambler friends clang before I throw the book across the room and return to Lockspeiser's Debussy? Not an entirely bad feeling reading unconvincing characters, especially those at large in the late-1980s, a time when everything was out on the table and no one could convince anyone of anything (those most susceptible had already been turned). That really was the decade when everything changed in the U.S. and Canada. Not just in politics and economics, but in literature, which became less interested in pushing the limits of Writing and, for our sins, became completely concerned with Story.

Saturday, September 24, 2022

Stuff the Sun Does


The Sun's great performances are its rise and fall. The rest is a journey most of us don't pay much attention to, just so long as it is lighting things up, warming our bodies.

Walking along Victoria Drive to Peter's memorial on Thursday I stopped before the lane just north of Venables and took this picture of autumn's first sunset.

This morning, while lying in bed listening to the radio, I was told of a "beautiful sunrise," which was all I needed to get up and share in it.

Friday, September 23, 2022

Conscription, Compassion



Sometimes you have to open the knot to tie it tighter. Not a proverb, just something I thought up on the walk home from Peter's memorial. 

For some, the knot is support given to Ukraine in its war against Russian invaders. For others, Russia's inability to annex Ukraine.

The tighter knot is endured by those who support Ukraine but who take pity on the Russian kid who is being thrown into the back of a truck that will take him to a river where he will be changed into a uniform, given a gun and shot dead by Ukrainians. 

"War," my Mom said, "was simpler when we were kids. Back then you picked sides. Just one side." 

Compassion is nowhere near the burden it is today. Today we feel everything. Or we say we do. Lying only tightens the knot.

Yesterday Iran's leader cancelled his interview with CNN. Another country not invited to Queen Elizabeth II's funeral, Nicaragua, took CNN off the air. Lines are being drawn wherever and whenever they can be, and drawing on something is a kind of tightening.

Stepping outside the memorial, Peter's cousin John passed me a beautifully smouldering rosewood pipe filled with hash from the Kootenays. When I was a kid, the best hash came from Afghanistan. Until the Russians invaded it too.

Thursday, September 22, 2022

Wales #1 (1966)


Google Books lists Who Is Kim Ondaatje?: The Inventive Life of a Canadian Artist (202?) by Lola Tostevin. Years ago, while visiting the Art Gallery of Ontario, I saw Ondaatje's Wales #1, and the other day I came upon its reproduction while looking for something else. There was another event that made it a coincidence, but I'll save that for the movie. Or maybe there was one, and it goes by the name of Paris, France (1994).

What to make of Wales #1, with its too-far coast and its hovering, too-close ocean? I have traveled that coast and had sensations like I get from its reproduction. Northern Wales is a dark place with dark-haired people with witchy voices, and I fell for one on a train to Holyhead. She asked me to get off with her, and we did, at Rhyl. Her sister was waiting, and said, "I've heard all about you, we've a long drive ahead." This was before cell phones. Like I said -- witchy!

Wednesday, September 21, 2022

Pelléas et Mélisande (1902)


Claude Debussy's five act Pelléas et Mélisande is based on Maurice Maeterlinck's Symbolist play and took the composer ten years to complete. Much of that time was spent wrestling with the music of author/composer Richard Wagner, who at the time was everywhere. But rather than produce something under the influence of Wagner ("I'm rid of the Rheingold"), Debussy opted for a "post-Wagner" designation. Not that it eased his mind any: "The colour of my soul is iron-grey and sad bats wheel about the steeple of my dreams."

Tuesday, September 20, 2022

"... an evil child's fumbling toys ..."


Philosopher and Holocaust-survivor Hannah Arendt wasn't very popular when she was writing on the Eichmann Trial in the early 1960s. But those who knew better, who lived by reason, saw value in her argument. Yes, Nazi war criminals needed to be brought to justice, but was Jerusalem's Eichmann Trial an example of that? Not really, she writes in her book of the same name -- or no, in the way logic can only be true or false.

The book is both an account and a critique of the Trial, not only its court and its proceedings but in its procurement of its accused, Nazi transportation co-ordinator Adolf Eichmann, who was kidnapped by Israeli agents in Argentina and flown to Israel to face the proverbial music.

It was Arendt's belief that how we arrive at a conclusion is as important as the conclusion we want and need. There was no question Eichmann would hang for his crimes, but if it was to mean anything other than retribution, it would have to proceed correctly, leave behind a record that was beyond a ruling, an unequivocal tale that would serve as a buffer against future attempts at crimes against humanity (genocide).

Arendt's book, as a whole, has some valuable lessons for us today, coming at a time when courts are everywhere and judgements are handed down quickly and punitively. Speaking of technology and our emergent technocracy, Arendt (an expert on totalitarianism) has this to say in her "Epilogue":

"It is the very nature of things human that every act that has once made its appearance and has been recorded in the history of mankind stays with mankind as a potentiality long after its actuality has become a thing of the past. No punishment has ever possessed enough power to prevent the commission of crimes. On the contrary, whatever the punishment, once a specific crime has appeared for the first time, its reappearance is more likely than its initial emergence could ever have been. The particular reasons that speak for the possibility of a repetition of the crimes committed by the Nazis are even more plausible. The frightening coincidence of the modern population explosion with the discovery of technological devices that, through automation, will make large sections of the population "superfluous" even in terms of labour, and that, through nuclear energy, make it possible to deal with this twofold threat by the use of instruments beside which Hitler's gassing installations look like an evil child's fumbling toys, should be enough to make us tremble." (273)

Monday, September 19, 2022

Our Long-Shadowed Autumns


Yesterday's after-dinner walk, twelve minutes before sunset (7:18pm), the sun's rays clinging to the eastern part of the park bench. Shortly before that (6:59pm), in the lane between East 18th and 19th Avenues, an inadvertent work of sculpture, an Aesthetically-Claimed Thing (ACT), as N.E. Thing Company (NETCO) would call it.

Sunday, September 18, 2022

Requiescet in pace


Tomorrow is Queen Elizabeth II's funeral, and 500 national leaders will gather for a demonstration of the tightest security known to humankind since the mining of gold in Southern Africa. I find this a terrifying notion, given what those national leaders not invited (their cronies and those who paint them as such) are capable of. The only way to ensure that nothing untoward happens is to invite everyone, no?  

Saturday, September 17, 2022

SOME 5

 

A few weeks ago, while repairing the south deck, I heard a sudden rumble on the front steps and thought it was the neighbourhood kids coming up to tell me something. In a fit of old man agitation I turned to warn them of the fresh paint, only to find Rob Manery, clad in protective cycling gear, holding before him Issue 5 of SOME, which he edits and publishes.

The issue contains fresh work by Clint Burnham, Jeff Derksen, Larry Timewell, a collaboration between Elee Kraljii Gardiner and Chris Turnbull, and a new "voice", Hamish Ballantyne, who, as new voices SOMEtimes do, kinda steals the show.

Ballantyne's ten-page contribution is drawn from a long poem (book-length, because it's italicized) called Hansom, and is an instance of language-centred writing "set" in a place where we assume language is taken for granted, as informational, a means of communication, and by that I am referring to the exurban rural, a place of grunts and sighs, shorthand backhands, where articles like the only soften directives and formalisms return us to a time when resource extraction was wholly Victorian ("upon"), as in the opening line:

place can over there  and I'll drop the tree upon it (6)

Who is Hansom? Well, maybe he's an exurbanite too, yet his range, in the nature of things (as Bernhard was fond of refrain-ing), extends world-wide (via social media):

learn from facebook that guy Hansom

threatened to stab

me with a triangle of porcelain

when shouting with my friends he woke

from a nightmare he is dead

a bbq for him (8)

And yes, lots of bbqs in this poem (also refrain-ing), making it seem more like a camping trip than a work camp, where outdoor cooking is not bbq'ing but just plain cooking, and if you're resourceful enough, if there's no accounting for taste, a bbq can double as a funeral pyre. 

Friday, September 16, 2022

Journal of a Solitude (1973)


Last week, while finishing my review of Sheryda Warrener's poetry collection Test Piece (2022), I pulled from my shelf Annie Truitt's Daybook: The Journal of an Artist (1982).

Test Piece opens with a quote from Daybook, and because I try to be rigorous, I like to read what comes before and after such quotes, see if the context of the quote (now an epigram) relates to the book in which its excerpt now appears.

It was while reading towards the quote (on page 13) that I was reminded of another journal, May Sarton's Journal of a Solitude (1973), and so I began to read it too, and haven't stopped.

On September 16 (1972?) Sarton (pictured up top, in 1983) writes her second-to-last entry, this time on her problem with "Z", a writer like Sarton who demands a lot of Sarton's time -- which of course is the book's theme: Sarton's time and her need for solitude.

In the middle of this entry, Sarton writes:

"I know that after a dispersed and uncentering summer I must get back to my own centre and get back to work. Otherwise I begin to feel like a disposal unit that, if filled too full, gets stuck and can no longer dispose of anything. The physical symptom is nausea in this machine, myself. I want to throw up what I am asked to contain and to digest." (204)

As a writer I know that writing takes a degree of concentration that I am fortunate to possess. But I also know that the ideal conditions for writing (particularly at the polishing stage) never come at the snap of a finger.

Warrener is part of a family, the mother of a son. She works at least two paying jobs, another of which as a writer of books. She shows this rather nicely in Test Piece, enough for us, as readers, to remind ourselves of our own lives, where time is compressed and anxiety, more than poems, is the result.

I was told my review will be published in the British Columbia Review at 5 a.m. (PDT) on September 18. In the meantime, there should be copies of Test Piece at Pulp Fiction, Paper Hound, People's Co-op and Massey Books.

Thursday, September 15, 2022

Rio Brava


Last night's screening of Deep Throat (1972) at Vancouver's Rio Theatre featured a 4K restoration print with enhanced sound. Following that, a panel comprised of sex workers Velvet Steele and Susan Davis; the children of director Gerard Damiano (Christar and Gerard Damiano, Jr.); and scholar Tom Waugh (appearing via Skype). Hosting the panel was theatre programmer Rachel Fox.

I'd seen the film many years ago at a theatre in Los Angeles, where its print bore the usual porn house signs of neglect, much like the film's star, Linda Lovelace, who claimed in her memoir Ordeal (1980) that her then husband/manager Chuck Traynor not only neglected her but exploited her, which I don't doubt; and that "every time somebody sees that movie they are watching me being raped," a statement that didn't deter Lovelace from returning to an industry she once again spoke well of, how it had opened doors for her after her book earnings (controlled by her born again second husband) ran out.

Not surprisingly, given that Deep Throat is a cultural icon, and popular culture being the social media cat toy it is today, the audience was more egghead grad student than man-in-a-raincoat masher. In the break between the screening and the panel people gathered out front (the protesters had left by then) to talk about how the film read not like a violent subjugation of women but a tribute to sex-positive feminism. Not just the film's theme -- a woman unable to achieve orgasm is advised by an older girlfriend to see a doctor who discovers her clitoris is in her throat and who submits to her request that he break the doctor-patient contract in an effort to help her fulfill her desire -- but in its camera work and blocking, its chummy dialogue and musical score. 

Prior to the screening, the audience was treated to untitled film footage of the 1981 protest outside Vancouver's Towne Theatre on Granville Street, where Pentecostal minister Bernice Girard (see her remarkable bio here) shames our right-wing provincial Social Credit government for allowing a screening of Bob Guccione's Caligula (1979). In Girard's words, "We're protesting Caligula because it is the first hard core porn film to run in a commercial theatre in Vancouver." Last night's screening of Deep Throat might well have been its second.

Wednesday, September 14, 2022

What Do We Do About Bob?


I have just received word from my Berlin colleagues that The Institute for Endotic Research (TIER) is mounting an "investigative program" on Bob Dorsey, variously known as a "little-known African-American painter" and "life partner of Fassbinder actor Volker Spengler," whose representation (above) is taped to a chair. Using the material remains of a life lived, a team has been assembled to guide archaeology's what-is through anthropology's what-was, and from there an instance of invisible statuary comprised of multiple dimensions, sensations and desires. 

Tuesday, September 13, 2022

Sun Berries


We're down to our last sun berries.

Managed to take a little more off the laurel, and the Monk's Weed I should never have planted is gone, though we won't know how far gone until next spring.

Wondering how long my begonias will last. Last year one held out until the last week of November.

I can't imagine a world without Jean-Luc Godard. 

That's the thing about forever -- nothing lasts.

Monday, September 12, 2022

Something to Sing About


a chorus of authors

composes for the soloist

an abnegation of showing up alone

the likes of which

we hear all the time now

 

it’s a wonder nothing gets done

the object no longer the object

but the means, fretted over

a circle of knit brows

no point too fine

 

we’re going to the beach today

and if we never get there

it will be time well spent

Sunday, September 11, 2022

"I said, 'No.'"



Ken Lum was a student of Jeff Wall and it shows. What doesn't show is the repeated-text to the right of the picture, where Ken would place his text over a monochromatic field. Also missing is Ken's authorship, but especially his endorsement of any similarity to his work whatsoever, a denial that could form the basis of its own repeated text, if the title of this work was not already inscribed.

In reality, Dan and I were coming from the opening at the Griffin, where we saw Stan's pictures of his B.C.- and Vancouver-based works taken over the past thirty years, en route to the opening at the Polygon at the foot of Lonsdale, a mile or so east, where Stan was showing the work he did for the Canadian Pavilion at the Venice Biennale.

I'd mentioned the Lonsdale Sally Anne to Dan as one of the better thrift shops for certain things and Dan asked if they had Mason jars. On the way back from the Polygon I noticed people moving about inside the shop and Dan ran up to ask an attendant if there were any Mason jars, and "Are you open?" This went back and forth for some time.

Saturday, September 10, 2022

The Goldilocks Dilemma

 

Too hot for the sun.


Too cold for the shade.

Friday, September 9, 2022

Dream I Tell You (2003)

 

"The joyless, atrocious, sad 'pleasure" is in the details of the suffering, in the suffering itself, in the taste you taste to the bottom where nothing forbids you to suffer, and each cruel dish, so relished, offers the heartbreaking pleasure of being able to feel." (6)

From Beverley Bie Brahim's 2006 translation of Hélène Cixous's Dream I Tell You (2003), a "book of dreams without interpretation" that came about at a dinner party, jokingly, when editor Michel Delorme asked Cixous for a book, and this is part of what became of it.

The quoted section up top originally appeared in italics, in an introduction called "Forewarnings", as if something perilous lay ahead, and might still. Do I believe in its sentiment? Yes, it is like what it is to suffer, for all writing on anything is but a simile, an interpretation. For Knut Hamson and his American acolyte John Fante, it was hunger. I googled Cixous and Kathy Acker just now and you'd think the two had never met.

Cixous, Luce Irigray and Julia Kristeva are important thinkers and writers to me. All are still with us. Alive and dreaming, I'm sure. 

Thursday, September 8, 2022

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Wednesday, September 7, 2022

Barrenwort


The barrenwort came from Sandra up the lane. She had a lot of it, I admired it, and she said, Take some! and I did, planting it beside the garage where it now thrives, changing colour and shape from April to September, then a smaller piece in the bed that runs before the laurel.

Over time that smaller piece was overtaken by the wild geranium and forgotten, until I noticed one spring its single hat-like flower poking through the geranium's lighter green leaves. A cry for help. So I helped it, moving it to the boulevard, a vignette I made around the Japanese cherry, where things are in balance, with no one getting a leg up on the other.

Tuesday, September 6, 2022

Hocus POTUS


Comedians and talk show hosts are no doubt overjoyed to see "special master" enter the lexicon, thanks to a U.S. federal court ruling that the government files stashed at Mar-a-Lago need to be handled by an impartial expert on what should speak for itself when it comes to national security. Could this be the delay Trump is looking for to get his monsters elected to the House and the Senate in order to "encourage" his return to the highest office in the land?

I expect at least a three day run of "special master" jokes, maybe a "special master" SNL skit and its t-shirt spin-off. Notice that the term is not capitalized, like Lord Protector was for the Cromwells back in mid-17th century Britain? Maybe when the U.S. achieves certified totalitarian status Special Master will come to mean more than an auditor of classified government documents, a title befitting of what was once called President of the United States.

Monday, September 5, 2022

Sociology


is the study of

patterned and recurring behaviour

is it though?

I have my feelings, I think

 

in tubs under the stairs

notebooks from Third and Fourth Years

the more doodles in the margins

the better I did in those classes

 

a portrait of C. Wright Mills

not his head and shoulders but his

accoutrements: thick black glasses

a motorcycle jacket

 

a memory from First Year:

Diane Wakoski’s “Uneasy Rider”

a break-up poem from our Norton

(on paper thin enough to roll joints with) 

 

Mills is as relevant as ever

his analysis of privilege and the structures

of power -- Wakoski too, though who

among us is in it for the long ride

Sunday, September 4, 2022

Quilchena Elementary

Forty-seven years since I said goodbye to Quilchena Elementary, a school that was forty-nine years old at the time of my "graduation", having opened its doors in 1926. Very moderne doors, too. You can see evidence of the moderne (Art Deco) style in the concrete stairway that links the school to the Collegiate Gothic style high school below it (Point Grey). Odd that a moderne style should precede a Collegiate Gothic style, but oh well, moving on ...

The birthdate of Quilchena sits proud above the main entrance doors. But because I can never remember whether the date is 1926 or 1928, I went to the school site to see if I could find it. When I clicked on "School History" in the "About Us" section, this came up:

Hardly a surprise. According to a historian I know, of all North American university departments, History has experienced the sharpest decline in enrolment. I reasoned this decline was due to a narcissism attributed to those born after 1980 (If History is what happened before me, I want no part of it). Another reason could be History's problematic past as a maker of narratives that serve the colonial endeavour (Not about us without us). As for Quilchena's "School History" placeholder, I'm sure a history is being rewritten pending the approval of those whose interests it serves and, as the case may be, those it deflects. (Some things never change.)

"What does Quilchena mean?" I asked a teacher back in Grade Three after I was asked to submit a short piece to the school newspaper on our annual gymnastics show, and was told it is a Salishan word that means "fast running water," a fact that appeared below the name of our school paper when it was rolled out of the office Gestetner a week later. Yet everywhere I look these days, Quilchena means something different. The VSB site I linked to says it means "many waters." I have also seen a definition that reads "flat land near water." Language, like history, is fluid.

Here's those stairs as I first knew them:


Saturday, September 3, 2022

Hazy Sunrise


This morning's hazy sunrise. Smoke, the CBC told us, but it did not say from where.

I stepped outside at 6:30am to take this picture and found it cool to the point of long pants and a jacket. Checked my phone app and it said 15C. This past August Vancouver broke its record for 20C+ days -- a record that had held since the city first started keeping records, in 1932.

At some point today I will complete my repairs to the front and back porch decks. Tonight I may or may not attend an exhibition of postcard collages at the former VIVO and On Main sites at 1965 Main.

Friday, September 2, 2022

Butterfly Bush


The butterfly bush given to me as a twig by April all those years ago is large now and has come and gone twice this summer -- and is suddenly in bloom again. And where it isn't in bloom, there is death, the expiration of past blooms, like the one coloured gold from a sliver of the 6:30pm sun coming through a spot in the laurel that separates our place from our neighbours'.

Thursday, September 1, 2022

Homeland (2011-2020)


I know I'm late to the game, but a few weeks ago I purchased the first three seasons of Homeland and just last night finished Season Two. Need I explain that Homeland is the story of a U.S. Marine who returns home from the Middle East after eight years MIA, only to find that his best friend and fellow Marine is fucking his wife, and for the rest of us to discover that he has been turned by his captors and is now a practicing Muslim whose mission is to kill a U.S. Vice-President who, as a CIA director, ordered a drone strike on his head captor's home, killing 82 children, including the captor's son. Complicating matters, a bipolar CIA analyst has fallen for him, having installed surveillance devices in his home. Eventually they are fucking too.

As is often the case, geo-politics is considered too high concept for U.S. Americans, so antagonisms manifest in families, where some of the series' most terrifying moments occur. I am speaking here of the former captive's teenage daughter (pictured above with the Vice-President's son, with whom she is breaking off relations), who, of all the actors in this series, is arguably the finest when it comes to interior acting. Very few actors can pull this off. But what is most remarkable is that interiority is all this actor has. Her movement is stilted, which might explain why she rarely takes more than a single step (usually into frame), as is her enunciation, though this limitation serves her character: that of the indifferent yet indignant teenager.

At first I was bored with this character, and would use her scenes to boil water or put cookies on a plate, but she grew on me. What I once saw as a tendency to suck the life out of a scene was in fact the opposite: an ability to slow things down, get the audience on her level so we could understand what it is like to be that age again; an emerging adult and child of parents, someone who takes both her feelings and her beliefs to extremes -- if only to better understand herself. A master class in interior acting, with the gestures that bring that interiority to life. One of the best (and sometimes worst) things about a developing series is that it takes what secondary actors do well and magnifies them. In the case of this young actor, it is all about the face (snarls, worming lips, dying eyes and brows that cock like a conductor's baton). Brando had that quality. With the right direction, it can be terrifying.